Thank God for this Friday!

I had a GREAT Friday! For starters, my friend and I had a garage sale. That alone makes my day! Sooooo much STUFF we have had, hanging on to, like people do, for no reason at all really... and it's semi-sold.
The first thing I really sold was this bouncer type baby thing I had. This lady came and asked me about it, and then asked if she could have her son try it out. She said, "I have a strange question.." then asked if she could put her son in it, and then explained that he has down syndrome, and she wanted to make sure he would respond to the toy. Well, be still my heart, not only do I love a baby, any baby, but special needs babies have a special place in my heart that I can't explain. (Maybe, possibly, as a women who has lost pregnancies, I appreciate what a miracle a baby is! Any baby! Maybe?) I was holding his finger, and making smiley, laughey faces at him. His Mom warned me that he doesn't make eye contact a lot, etc etc. You better believe I had him gushing. I love babies. Love, Love, Love babies!
Speaking of babies, I told Hubby that once the kids were in school, I want to start fostering infants. I didn't know you could chose a certain age, but apparently you can. I would love nothing more than to have babies coming into my life for the rest of my life. He laughed when I told him, and I said, "I'm doing it." Point blank. lol.
I will tell you, my what, four followers? haha, in complete honesty, the reason the baby talk came up... I want another baby. I was at the park (one of my favorite places to be!) and I talked to another Mom, who had three kids, one Chase's age, one Olivia's age, and a new born. I realised that if we had another baby NOW would be the time. And it made my heart ache, because in a perfect world I would be pregnant with my next by now. But not in this world; our world; the real world.
Yes, I want lots of babies, there I said it! And if I ever win the lottery, you better believe I am adopting! I am very open about my miscarriages. I've had 4 pregnancies and 2 live births. You do the math. And that heart breaking fact, along with the multiple miscarriages in my family, along with the many friends I have who struggle with infertlity, were my main reason for deciding that we we are done with babies. I told myself, BE GRATEFUL. A boy and a girl... be grateful. Two amazing, beautiful, healthy children (THANK YOU GOD!)... Be grateful!!!! But lately those thoughts haven't stopped my natural desire...
Some people dream of being doctors and astronauts and engineers.... I dreamed of being a Mom. Nothing more, nothing less. I wanted a family of my own. I am far from perfect, but when it comes to kids, I am patient, I am encouraging, and I can love. I am good at that. And if you ask me, the absolute most important thing a parent can do, or give, is unconditional love. And yeah, I like being around kids! I know I'm never going to make any kind of money doing it. But I just really, really love it.
But oh geez, where has this blog gone?? So yes, the women I sold the first toy to, with the baby boy with down syndrome... She... or more HE actually... made my day! His sweet smile made my day. The way he smiled right at me, while biting his tongue. I felt like a better person because I gave his Mommy a good deal on some silly toy. Not even because of that. I can't explain it. Because I met that sweet baby boy, I guess? Because for two minutes I made their lives better. He made my day. No real reason. He just did! :)
But oh my, let me go on about why this day was great! Aside from that beautiful baby boy... :) Well, at the garage sale I made much more money than expected. I also got to spend the day with one of my best friends, as well as with one Hubby's best friends (they're a couple).
AND once I got home I basically finished TWO scrapbooks! NOT AN EASY TASK! Both of them are for Chase's Birthday party in three weeks! Yay! :)
But yes one of the scrabooks is the Birthday Book... all of the Chase's Birthdays! The other is the One to Five Year book! And FINALLY that book is up to date! Yay! I seriously feel, tonight, that I ROCK as a Mommy. Goooo me! :)
Annnnd I ordered the rest of Chase's SuperHero party details and decorations, along with my wedding shoes! Score!
So, yes yes, Very good Friday! Thank you God for this wonderful Friday! :)

Time to Hero up!

Today is the day I am FINALLY going to buy party supplies for Chase's Birthday!
I have been so overwhelmed with this wedding I am in, along with all of it's events and expectations! Well, the Bachelorette party was last weekend, so all I have left to do is buy my shoes, and get Chase's tuxedo <--- My little Ring Bearer! =D
Oh... and write a speach to give in front of 200 people. No biggie. Lol.
But yes, TODAY I am going to get the things I need for my SON'S FOURTH BIRTHDAY!
I have a lot of ideas, and I've already picked up a ton of SuperHero candy, tattoos, signs, and other trinkets. The problem is party stores sell Spiderman things, and Batman things, but nobody really combines things. So I have to turn to the internet for supplies. Sigh.
The problem is I am a big chicken, and hate ordering off sites I don't use often.
I am also debating on activities... the kids are coming in Super Hero costumes so that automatically means playtime. We also got a little Superhero tent for the kids to play in, along with a Super Hero pinata. And then I am ordereing these super hero rubber duckys to put in a pool and have them pick for prizes. And I am going to make a backdrop for pictures. And I think that should be enough? It's the first year I am not having the kids do an Art project, but I feel like it will just be too much if I do that too.
I want a nice, calm, but fun and eventful party for Chase. This is going to be the first year he REALLY remembers, and I want it to be perfect for him. Talking about it is making me very excited!!!!! Oh, another bonus: My mom bought both Chase and Olivia's costumes, which saves me A LOT of money! Those things are like $30 each plus shipping! Crazy!
Ok, I gotta get to this online shopping! Time for me to Hero up! lol ;)

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What a Weekend!

On Friday, Prince William married the ridiculously beautiful Kate Middleton!
They say we as Americans are fascinated by this wedding (and these people) because it is like a fairytale. The Prince falls in love with a beautiful "commoner." Maybe. Or maybe it's because we watched Prince William grow up, and he was the cutest kid/teen. Or maybe it's because Princess Diana was every where in the media for so many years. Or maybe it's because when she passed we all made a special place in our hearts for William and Harry. Or maybe it's because America came from England. Or maybe it's that we are so fascinated by royalty because in this country the closest we have to Royalty are celebrities and politicians, and there's a thin line between love and hate with them. Yeah, I'm going with that. We DVR'ed the royal wedding on E! ...All FIVE hours of it. And I spent my Saturday on the couch watching the entire thing, fast forwarding through commercials of course. And I decided I am in love with hats, and both me and Olivia are going to where them whenever we can!
And I have two more thoughts on this wedding. The first is that I honestly, from the bottom of my heart, hope Prince William and Kate get their Happy Ending; Big, beautiful family, along with true, unconditional, unbreakable love. I do!
Second, there was a part of me that watched the wedding as a parent, being that I have been one for some time now. And I had to shed a tear or two, or ten, for Princess Diana. I couldn't help but think how I wished she was there, and how she could see her first born getting married. Once you have kids, you're not scared of dying... you're scared of leaving... you're scared of missing things. My daughter is not even 2 years old, and I look forward to helping her plan her wedding more than almost anything. And to miss that. Ouch. And for Prince William, or any child who gets married with a parent gone... how bittersweet. A Wedding day should be the happiest day of your life, with nothing bittersweet about it. So my heart went out to all of them there.
And that was Friday, and a lot of my Saturday.
Sunday Osama Bin Laden was announced dead. Osama Bin Freaking Laden. After ten years. TEN YEARS. Many, many, many thoughts traveled through my head. Disbelief, of course. As well as, "Why couldn't we have found him ten years earlier." Before so much was lost, before so much was sacrificed, before so many were sacrificed. At that same moment I was so grateful, because finally, finally, finally, we had a sense of closure. All gave some and some gave all, and at last... it was not in vain.
And then back to how much I gave. And I couldn't help but think not that it was not in vain, but that it was not necessary. The year plus I spent away from my husband. The seven months of my son's first year where my husband was away. Every single day being SCARED. I remembering bawling my eyes out the day he deployed, and how much worse it was when he had to go back. I was 24 years old with a 2 week old baby, and the moment I got back from dropping my husband off at the airport, to go fight in an unwinnable war, I walked in the door and fell to the ground and cried. Weeks with out hearing from him, praying and pleading with God on a daily basis... and all of that could have been prevented. And how ridiculous that these were my thoughts. But they were. Maybe it was my own way of coping, of allowing myself to be happy about someone passing.
This man, he didn't just hurt my country, my peers... he hurt me, personally. Even still, his debts are with God, not me. But I do feel closure. I feel that the pain that so many people I love had to feel, as well as people I will never meet... it was not in vain. We got the bad guy. And God Bless America.
As I said, what a weekend!